I used to struggle BIG TIME if I was misunderstood or judged wrongly. I felt it was my job to uphold the truth and explain myself. 🙋🏻‍♀️ Defender of my heart! ⁣

When I would tell my mom the story of what was going on she’d say, “you’re doing it again. You’re trying to explain yourself to them and it’s not yours.” 🤦🏻‍♀️⁣

It would drive me CrAzY! I felt I had every right to go back and make the wrong right! I was tired of being misunderstood. ⁣

But I was exhausted trying to get my accusers to understand the truth of my heart. 🙇🏻‍♀️⁣

I ended up feeling like I put myself under them just by explaining “my why” hoping they’d understand me, rather than rising above confidently trusting the One I know was leading me. The true defender of my heart. ⁣

God took me on a very long journey of revealing this inner struggle of pleasing others over living freely for Him. I came to realize the empowering reality that “explaining myself” only put me in a place of putting my confidence in what “they think,” rather than firmly standing on what God says, and what I know He thinks of me. ⚔️⁣

I realized I was throwing away my confidence each and every time I allowed the sting of being misunderstood rule in my heart over resting in the truth that I was trusting and following Jesus. ⁣

Freedom is hearing what God says, following Him, and not worrying about what others will say, or think about you! ⁣

He will be your vindicator, your protector, and He will bring justice to your cause! (Psalm 135:14) ⁣

He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the noonday sun. Psalm 37:6 NLT ⁣

So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. Hebrews 10:35-36 NIV ⁣

Who needs this layer of people pleasing “mud” removed so that you too can be free? ⁣

I’m praying for you today! ♥️, J ⁣

*Todays devotional inspired by my upcoming book: Life is Muddy

Jillian Ahonen, Founder of J.A. Ministries, has a servants heart. After years of what felt like life boot camp, she felt called into full time ministry. With a mandate to reveal God’s heart through speaking and writing, she combines her transparent story-telling style and prophetic anointing to teach scriptural truths, with a mission to transform lives across the globe.

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